Back to reality

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So, the haze has slowly lifted from Singapore and the sun is shining brighter and

school is undeniably here again for the new term. (yay)

To be honest, when I reflect back on what i’ve been doing so far in school and my progress, it’s not the best that I have done, but at least i’m still trying. My first term was packed with assignments, volunteering, CCAs and SU-FOC related activities and it’s been a ride, nonetheless!

I just have to remember that I promised myself to work hard and do well in whatever I do Insya Allah to get a good enough or excellent GPA. I just need to re-motivate myself. I will not give up so easily and hopefully become more mature, hardworking and responsible. I need to re-evaluate my studies and refocus into what i’m doing so i don’t fall back or lose track.

There’s so many things to juggle right now. Reality has now laid down upon me. I need to breathe, and face it all once again.

Bismillah.

Random filler of thought

Sorry i’ve only been posting about music and lyrics and poems and such. So much have been happening in my life during this term break, which if i haven’t mentioned, commenced a week ago and will end in a week’s time. (sobs)

But i love the idea of expression through these mediums. Insya Allah i will update about my life recounts with pictures to liven up this blog. My assignments are currently piling up, and my usual procrastinating self isn’t helping. And i’m heading to NPSU’s Challengers Camp in three day (YAY). 

So help me God. 

I will make the best of my holidays, Insya Allah. 

Teman

I absolutely love Malay songs, and musicians like Zubir Abdullah. And this song is dedicated to a special someone, D.

Kehangatan mentari menyinari pagi
Derusan hujan mendingini panas
Saling mengiring saling melengkapi
Begitulah kudrat illahi

Kehadiranmu teman bagaikan cahaya
Menerangi taman hatiku yg sepi
Jalin kasih mesra kurnia maha esa
Merestui kemesraan ini

*Andai bunga tiada mekar mewangi
Hancurlah harapan unggas menyepi
Andai dikau menghilang dan menyendiri
Ku terapung hilanglah panduan
Bak hujan di tengah hari
Panas menduri bumi…
Begitulah perasaan pabila bayangmu pun tiada

Keikhlasan hatimu menghangatkan jiwa
Kelembutan suaramu menyejukkan bara
Jernih airmatamu lambang ketulusan
Menemaniku dikala kesepian

(ulang *)

Teruslah menyinar mentari pagi
Teruslah menari hujan yg mendingin
Menghijau menyegar menyuburi bumi
Saling menjalin hubungan infiniti…
(Saling menjalin hubungan infiniti)

Teman – Zubir Abdullah

Weddings

Okay last post for tonight!

I think weddings are the most magical thing ever. And even in this complicated, topsy-turvy life i’m in, I still think the idea is perfect. I may be still too young to go after it, but I guess i’m old enough to think and engage myself with the idea haha.

I may never know who i’ll be marrying in the future just yet, and I always pray that God show me they way. But somehow, I see signs that he might have already existed in my life. Maybe i’m already blessed to meet my life-long partner in my early life. Whatever it is, Insya Allah i’ll be united with my soul mate when the time comes cause if it’s meant to be, it will be. (and i secretly hope my little heart’s wish comes true hehe)

And this wedding speech just made me cry, thanks to someone who introduced it :’)

Everything Has Changed

Another piece of new music that I absolutely love. Despite all the Taylor controversy, I still love and respect her as a musician. The collaboration with Ed Sheeran made this even more magical.

All I knew this morning when I woke
Is I know something now, know something now I didn’t before
And all I’ve seen since 18 hours ago is green eyes and freckles and your smile in the back of my mind making me feel like
I just want to know you better know you better know you better now
I just want to know you better know you better know you better now
I just want to know you better know you better know you better now
I just want to know you know you know you

Cause all I know is we said hello
And your eyes look like coming home
All I know is a simple name, everything has changed
All I know is you held the door
You’ll be mine and i’ll be yours
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

And all my walls stood tall painted blue
But i’ll take them down, take them down and open up the door for you
And all I feel in my stomach is butterflies the beautiful kind
Making up for lost time, taking flight, making me feel like

I just want to know you better know you better know you better now
I just want to know you better know you better know you better now
I just want to know you better know you better know you better now
I just want to know you know you know you

Cause all I know is we said hello
And your eyes look like coming home
All I know is a simple name, everything has changed
All I know is you held the door
You’ll be mine and i’ll be yours
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

Come back and tell me why
I’m feeling like i’ve missed you all this time
And meet me there tonight
And let me know that it’s not all in my mind

I just want to know you better know you better know you better now
I just want to know you know you know you

Cause all I know is we said hello
And your eyes look like coming home
All I know is a simple name, everything has changed
All I know is he held the door
You’ll be mine and i’ll be yours
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

All I know is we said hello
So dust off your highest hopes
All I know is pouring rain
And everything has changed
All I know is a new found grace
All my days, i’ll know your face
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

Breathe

Hello! I’m back after a few months of abandoning this blog, haha.

I have time management issues and apparently life’s been taking quite a toll. In April, I’ve embarked on my new journey in tertiary education! Never did I expect, about a year ago, that I would end up pursuing my dream course. School life’s been exciting and tough at the same time. The thing about being in a polytechnic is that the environment, the people you meet and the goals you set are way, way different from how it was in secondary school. It’s quite refreshing actually. 

I adjusted my mindset to do my best in whatever I do in my course, so I could get my diploma and then proceed to further my studies in a local/overseas university, Insya Allah. I always believed if you have a passion for something, nothing could hold you back, and you just have to give it all you have. 

The arts have always been my passion, other than language. I guess i’m more of an arts, cultural, linguisitic person in that sense. I believe these aspects make people more humane, that’s why i fell in love with it. And I always wanted to challenge myself, step out of my comfort zone, be challenged and pushed to the limits so i gain nothing but triumph, be nothing but grateful, receive nothing but give back. And i thought being in a polytechnic, pursuing a course in Arts Business Management would provide me that experience. I’ve no regrets, so far. I don’t intend to. 

I’ve had to make a lot of tough decisions, learn a lot of skills, write a lot of things and voice myself out like never before. You see, poly life allows you to do more than just the academics, it somehow allows you to be, you. There’s just so many opportunities for the next three years and beyond laid upon me. It has broaden my horizon, opened up my eyes, my brain to so many things about the world and life that I’ve never learned before. Life just always surprises you with opportunities and chances.

I just have to learn to breathe, and take a leap of faith, and embrace it.